Tuesday, May 17, 2016

When life goes so wrong, but so right

Read the title. How is that even possible? 

I know it's been a minute since I've posted. My regular readers have been chomping at the bit to find out what's going on. I won't go into a lot of detail, I will say this. Life is going so good-and I mean really good but soooooo bad at the same time. 

I started a new career. I am madly in love with the sig. He's shown me that even tho it seems crazy, some people love you, even when you have nothing to offer them but your company. His family is just as amazing, and every time I'm certain I have fallen from grace, they accept my every flaw as just a part of me. Our tiny humans are finally getting a grip on our new routine, and they're all just incredible kids. We laugh. We play. We live a sweet life, and I have never been happier. 

On the flip side of that, I have never been more miserable. After 6 months of semi peace, suddenly I was arrested for a violation for a crime I didn't commit. I have never been more humiliated in my life. I've never been in trouble. I've never done anything remotely wrong, and yet there I was being shackled while my ex's wife stood taking pictures. My picture was plastered all over the Internet, but worse, I was arrested in front of my kids. Finally comes the 5 court dates in under 30 of the upcoming days. Not to mention, my tires were slashed while I was there. As I said a few years ago. Just when I thought I'd seen the depths of hell, he shows me a new level. 

Despite everything that has ensued, I continue to pray for them. I believe in forgiveness, because the good lord forgives me every day. Life gets crazy. Sometimes there aren't enough words to describe everything that's taking place, but we press on. I will continue moving forward. The past has to let go of me eventually right? And I'll forgive. But for the record, my forgiveness should not be mistaken for ignorance. I know the truth. It will find a way to the light. I will be redeemed and my good name cleared. Y'all pray for us.